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Into This World We're Thrown

13 Years Old

I once had the cutest boyfriend. His name was Chris. Everyone called him Babyface.
He had long blonde hair, halfway down his back and blue eyes. He wore jean jackets. And glasses when he had to read something.
He wore pink because he could, not because he was questioning his sexuality. He knew already, it brought it out.
I remember leaning up against him, between his legs; in my older brother's room passing bottles of Southern Comfort and lemon gin. And bubblegum
Chris liked Metallica like me. Chris taught me about The Doors.
On a Friday afternoon, at 11:35 a.m., I would look out the door of my typing class and there would be Chris and Bill. We would hang out at the mall and I would not go back to class.

I met Chris on a dare.(Do you remember, Juner?)
We were making prank phone calls. Some rude. Some dirty. All funny. Someone knew Chris and the telephone was put in my hand.
"Call him," I was urged. "Do Sexy Sylvia."
So, of course I did.
"Hello," I said. "Is Chris there?"
"Speaking."
Hmmm. He sounded cute, even!
So, I decided my voice needed to be breathy, too. I am sure at 14, I might have maybe sounded like a coked-out porn star.
"This is Sexy Sylvia in lace underwear. I have three articles of clothing on. Pick a number between one and three and maybe I'll take something off for ya."
We ended up talking for a few hours.

I remember breaking-up with Chris on the steps of a church at one in the morning. The ground was wet with recent rain, filling our noses, the damp wind touching our faces.
I remember watching him storm away down the middle of the road.
"Now," Bill said to me, shaking his head. "What did you go and do that for?"
I remember standing there thinking the same thing.

Comments

Traci Dolan said…
Aww! So is life sad... and men in pink are hot!
Esther said…
sometimes we do silly things :)
Phoesable said…
Sigh. My misguided break-up was with an incredibly sweet, cute, brown-haired, green-eyed, strong-jawed Indiana farming boy named Doug. We were 14 and ridiculously innocent. He thought I broke up with him because he had kissed me poorly. Really, I was just freaked out about liking him so much. Our little sisters tried to get us back together. His older sister hated me. We'd worked on our leaf collections for Biology class together and when, after our breakup, he returned the leaves I'd left with him he included two types of leaves he'd been able to find that I hadn't. The thought of his face still breaks my heart. He didn't date anyone else until I left Indiana to return to California two years later. I wouldn't have married him, but high school could have been much, much sweeter and easier if I hadn't, well, been me. :-)

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